“GIRL!!” came the text last Friday from the doctor’s office. We have another grandchild on the way! Stephanie and her husband, Will, are due in January. They had an ultrasound and saw her moving her hands and crossing her ankles like a proper lady. Wow.
A week ago I woke from a dream at 4:30 am unsure of where I was or even what year it was. In my dream I was again a young mother of two preschoolers on a really bad day. Everything was out-of-order, me most of all, and I was spiraling down in anger and frustration. I wasn’t seeing me at my worst. I WAS me at my worst.
I wrote down what I could recall and later that day wrote about the power and the feelings in the dream. I can’t let go of this dream. I feel the out-of-control-ness. It still scares me.
I was anxious during my second pregnancy about my ability to manage 2 kids in diapers in 2 car seats. They were both very much planned and welcomed, but the second happened quicker than I anticipated. They are 26 months apart. Our grandchildren will be 23 months apart.
I know I’m not that young, overwhelmed woman any more. And neither are my daughters. I’ve worked hard for years to understand and learn from that time in my life. I hope I’ve passed some of my wisdom on to them.
I am wondering, though, why that dream now?
Amma Ponders 
Congratulations!!!
Thanks, Aimee. We’re excited.
I saw Lucas’s 1st day of school picture. Sounds like he’ll be class president!
Exciting times. Congratulations to Stephanie and Will and to you, too, Grandma!!!
P.S. “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will direct your paths” (Proverbs 3:5-6)
Maybe you are trying to control things in your life? Let go and let God …
In her book “God Will See You Through,” popular Unity writer Mary Kupferle writes, “Take time to be quiet, to be still and contemplate the Truth that God’s love is right there with you, that God’s light is now shining throughout your mind to reveal what you need to see and know. Listen within and let God’s wisdom gently turn your thoughts over and over until the questions become answers, the doubts become newborn faith. You will see that everything has been and is working for your good.”
Thank you so much, Bev. Your words are perfect.
When I feel off-balance or troubled, it usually is about wanting to control the uncontrollable, especially with my kids. Who are all grownup and can handle their own stuff. Probably. A friend says, “All we can do is love them and pray for them.” She’s right..