My brother, Jim Reaugh, died July 12, 2013, with dignity and grace. For 3 weeks before he died, he drove himself to the hospital for radiation. He was hospitalized on July 5 for extreme shortness of breath. A day later, they began treating him for heart arrhythmia. When transferred to the ICU he said he wanted to be DNR–do not resuscitate. He said no to any further treatment, including chemotherapy. He was very clear that he was ready to go. He transferred to a Hospice facility a couple of days before he died. The staff there kept him as comfortable as possible. My husband and I were with him through that last week and as he died.
Jim was a fiercely independent, gentle soul. He DID NOT want to need help of any kind. He lived alone, had no wife or kids. He did hard physical work for over 20 years. He still had friends from high school and others he got to know later. He didn’t share much about his illness with anyone. We didn’t know the extent of it until he went to Hospice. It was in his brain, his lungs, the cavity around the lungs and most of the bones in his body. It’s hard to imagine the pain he lived with the last month of his life. He was strong and stubborn.
He told me he was afraid after he was admitted to the hospital. We all knew the likely progression of his illness thanks to the internet. It would be bad and probably fatal. After the DNR decision, I never saw anger and I never saw fear. He seemed to be at peace.
He died on his terms and when he decided to go. I am so grateful for Hospice’s assistance.
I admire his courage.
I am proud to be his sister.
Amma Ponders 